I can’t believe she’s gone.

I won’t hear her laugh.

I won’t see her smile.

The smell that filled our home with the delicious curries she made,

Will be nothing more than a fond memory.

I can’t believe she’s gone.

It’s as if it was just yesterday,

She’d walk our child around our house.

“Leave him, leave him, he’s just a child”

Those words have become verbatim to our little one.

I can’t believe she’s gone.

I lie awake browsing her photos.

There should have been more,

How was I to know?

That she’d be gone too soon?

I can’t believe she’s gone.

There’s a hole in my heart.

She found a place in there,

right from the start.

Now my heart is apart,

Cos she had to depart.

I can’t believe she’s gone.

Although it wasn’t so long,

My time with her was profound.

In so many ways she made me see the light,

If I had chosen darkness instead.

I can’t believe she’s gone.

I’m hurting inside,

Yet it all looks fine on the outside.

Time and time again,

I ask myself why…why…why?

Yet I know there’ll be no answer justified.

I can’t believe she’s gone.

She filled a gap I longed for in my life.

She filled that gap for and to all that knew her.

I wish I could void this like a transaction,

How nice if death allowed subtraction.

I can’t believe she’s gone.

I just can’t believe she’s gone.

I just can’t. I just can’t.